Insecurity Defenition Poem -Sonja

Sonja Milekovic
Ms. Klasen
English 10
14.11.13

Insecurity /ɪnsɪˈkjɔːrɪti/ is an uncertainty or anxiety
About oneself or lack of confidence.

But insecurity is more than that.

Insecurity is feeling like
You cannot wear the green shirt
Because people would call you and it ugly.

Insecurity is spending
An hour in the bathroom
To cover the spots from
Prying, laughing eyes.

Insecurity is hiding
In the back of the classroom
With a shroud of mystery
To conceal the fear of
Everyone laughing at
Your answers.

Insecurity is layering yourself
In conservative clothes
So the mockery about
The small layer of fat
Any normal human should have
Is out of sight
And out of the obnoxious gossipers mind.

Insecurity is retiring
To a world of books
In the comfort of my room
Since my peers cannot accept
Me for who I am.

Insecurity is allowing
Only a small amount
Of food, water, life
To shed the faces full
Of ridicule.

Insecurity is creating a veil
Of sweaters and long sleeved shirts
To hide the razor marks
Of a haunting past.

Insecurity is feeling shamed
Of any uniqueness because
Of the unnecessary attention
And inability to hide your shyness.

Insecurity is sustaining
The weight of a burden 
From the unfortunate
Events of life
And helplessness that
You couldn't stop the crash
That killed your parents.

Insecurity is redesigning yourself
To be perfectly aligned
With society's expectations
Making you forget
What makes you unique
So scornful looks are redirected.

Insecurity is forgetting
That it's alright to be different
Despite another persons opinion.

Can't I escape my insecurities?